Doubts

I have always tried to keep things pretty light and positive on this blog.  I believe very firmly that maintaining a positive perspective is one of the most important things you can do in life in general.  I also feel like I am probably one of the luckiest human beings in the world and have no right to complain about anything.  I am, however, committed to staying honest.  The reason for having a blog in the first place is to be honest about my goals, my progress, and all of the challenges that I may encounter.  So here is a very honest post about some of those challenges, as I stare spring racing season in the face, and try to decide when to bite the bullet and sign up for my first half marathon.

Spring 2015 is going to be absolutely nuts at my house.  Joe is finishing residency, which means 2 things.  1.  He is writing his royal College Exam this spring, and 2. We are moving to a new city.

Let me explain.

1.  The Royal College Exam is kind of like the Bar Exam for doctors, except it’s on steroids.  Not all doctors have to write it; it’s for specialists, but since Joe is an Emergency Medicine specialist, he needs to write it in order to be Royal College Certified.  I think this is only a thing in Canada, but it’s similar to the American Board Exam for doctors.  Except that in Joe’s program, they write the American Boards for practice every year, starting in their first year, and he has been passing every year.  The Royal College is a lot tougher than that.  People are very afraid that they might fail…  they start studying a year in advance (a year) and they are all working full time as well.  So as you can see, this thing is big, and it’s been a major player in our lives ever since this past summer, when Joe’s study schedule started.  We are now entering crunch time for Royal College, meaning that the next 3 months are all about survival for Joe, and me doing whatever I can to be supportive so that he can pass this thing, and we can all move on with our lives.

2.  Because Joe is graduating from residency, pending he pass his exams in May and June, he has accepted a position as a real, grown-up doctor in another city.  He got a few offers, and we’ve considered all the pros and cons and visited different cities and attended interviews and mulled it over, and we’ve finally settled on Toronto.  So this summer, we are moving to Toronto…  meaning that I have an exam of my own to write, in order to be licensed as a nurse in Toronto.  And jobs to apply for, and interviews to go to, and apartment hunting to do…  all while Joe crams for his exam, and we both continue to work full time, because life has a way of throwing everything at you all at once.

The good news is, when the exams are all finished, and I’ve officially left my job (a whole other post on how sad that day will be for me will, I’m sure, appear on this blog at some point), and we’ve found a place to live and we’ve moved all of our stuff…  after all of that has happened, we are taking a month long vacation to Asia, where we will finally get the Honeymoon we never had because we were too busy when we first got married.

OK, so what does all of this stuff have to do with running?  Well, I’m honestly not sure what to do this spring…  Part of me wants to just sign up for a half marathon and go for it.  Jump in with both feet.  I feel like if I don’t sign up, I’ll never get motivated to push myself, and it’ll never happen.  I know I can do it, even if my time isn’t fabulous, and it hurts a bit (or maybe a lot), this is something that I want to do.  The problem is that we’ve got so much big stuff happening in the coming months, I’m not sure I’ll be able to commit to training.

So there is another part of me that thinks I should wait it out until fall, when things have settled down a little.  Find a job, find an apartment, move, go to Asia, come back, join a running group in Toronto, and aim for a fall race.  But there’s part of me that is worried about that too…  will I be able to stay in shape while on my belated Honeymoon?  Will I have enough time to train when I get back?  Will I be too overwhelmed at my new job to stay committed to my training goals?

So this is my dilemma.  I feel different about it every day, and I’m honestly not sure what decision I’m going to end up making.  But in the name of honesty, there it is!  What I do know is that running will help get me through the chaos of the next few months.  And as crazy as this spring and summer are going to be, I am wildly excited for all of this.  🙂

Do you have any big races coming up this spring?

How did you decide to run your first marathon or half marathon?  Did you plan it all out, or just jump in with both feet?

Back to business!

So I have officially moved back to Canada!  It took me a few days longer than I thought to get back in the workout groove, but I must say, it’s good to be back home in the True North and I’m excited to get outside and run all over my city again.  I have tons of happy running memories on these streets, and I already feel a thousand per cent more enthusiastic about running now that I’m back in my home sweet home.

There is just something about belonging in a place, and I belong here.

This was one of the first things I ate when we got back, in a shopping mall, while waiting to get our Canadian phones activated.

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I love poutine so much, I want to marry it. Prepare yourselves for lots more poutine pictures to come.

So it’s been a pretty slack week for me in the workout department.  There were a couple of days where my exercise came in the form of lifting and hauling heavy boxes and furniture.  Now that that’s over, I’m easing my way back into my training schedule.  I’m also being pretty careful about my knee, so I may be doing more cross training than running in the coming days.  Today, I went to the very lovely gym down the street and opened a new membership.  This gym seems pretty cool, they even have a boxing gym that’s open on weekends!!  Yay!  I didn’t fully explore the place yet, but I did get in some good cross training on the elliptical.  I’m so excited about this new gym, I can’t even express it.  I want to do all the classes, and then spend all of my time in their boxing gym, and then also lift every weight.  So, we’ll see about that.  I’ll keep you posted on how that goes.

And just in case there are nights when I can’t get to the gym before it closes at 10pm (which WILL happen, with my weirdo nurse schedule) check out this delightful little addition to our home:

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There she is, in all her splendor.  I love her already, and we’ve only just met.

So I’m feeling pretty darn excited about the upcoming summer…  actually, I’m excited about the whole upcoming year, including the ups and yes, the downs, that come with training.  I can’t wait to get back into the groove, and see where these feet of mine can take me!